"You look amazing!"

My weight loss has done wonders for my endurance, health, body image, confidence, and dancing. I can honestly say that I am as small as I was in 8th grade when I lost 30 lbs the summer after 7th grade. I feel good - more importantly I feel healthy. I feel like I can actually accomplish things I couldn't before - lift weights, run a mile in 11 minutes, dance for hours without being tired. Health-wise I am happy. But there's this little part of me that still makes me feel upset every now and again. While I appreciate all the compliments and they fuel my motivation to continue, I can't help but feel curious and upset over the fact that I never really received compliments like that in the past. Ok so I am "beautiful," "amazing," and "gorgeous" now but what was I before? Ugly? I never really thought that I looked horrible before and maybe I'm just being pessimistic, but I can tell you that these men were not trying to holla at me before. Now that I lost the weight you think you're worth my time? Try again. It just goes to show you that looks really matter a lot in this society. It sucks. I always think of it as a compliment when people tell me I look amazing or beautiful now, but I always have that thought in my mind... what was I before? Why am I only these things now that I've lost 75 lbs? Oh well... just a thought.