Leeches
are an interesting parasite; they feed on blood and can store up to five times
the body mass of that blood.
They
take in so much liquid that they only need to feed twice a year.
They
also, surprisingly, have two suckers, one at each end to silently and
painlessly take in the sustenance and constituents of your being from either
end.
There
is no clandestine trap door to exit their solid grasp once they’ve grabbed
hold.
New
York City is a leech to me; a bloodsucking, thirsty, ungrateful,
so-black-it’s-purple leech.
This
is the city where your hopes and dreams come to rest in a graveyard of concrete.
Where
the rudimentary jungle is a labyrinth of skyscrapers that are constructed with
lost aspirations cemented into their walls.
Where
being a single “independent” 30 yr old career woman is swooned upon,
All
the while she yearns in her heart for a companion, desperately seeking him out
in a selfish workplace and inebriated bar scene – or better yet the anonymous
cosmos of the internet.
Where
working fifty to sixty hour work weeks is normal,
And
where lunch breaks are unheard of.
The
city where nightlife is a meat market for perverts to pick their meal for the
evening,
And
where men outnumber their counterparts making them eager for the next exciting
rendezvous with an anonymous wet pussy.
(Which
is not to say that one should frown upon that disposable life if that is what
you chose, but this is not the life for me.)
This
is the city where it is normal to cohabitate with rodents and roaches,
Where
people look forward to crowding a numbered or lettered cart during rush hour as
their mode of transportation,
Only
to smell a pungent body odor or get a quick watery spray of a stranger’s snot.
Where
walking by a person with no home and no food is a common occurrence – but don’t
worry, you are not obliged – walking by and ignoring their humanity is ordinary
too.
Where
your sidewalks trade green trees and kids on bicycles for massive bags of trash
and predators lurking in disguise.
Where
people buy dogs as a replacement for children and adorn them with clothes,
buying them gourmet food.
This
is the city where lies are rampant, deceit is an epidemic of the common cold,
and truth is an evasive concept.
Where
churches adorn every street in opulence, glory, and mystery, but behind the
aesthetic doors on Sunday, the pews are left half empty.
Where
women camouflage their innate giving and caring nature behind pearls, sleek
straight hair, an aggressive countenance, and rosy blush just to impress and
advance in big business.
Now,
don’t get me wrong, all of New York City is not wretched.
There
are those transient moments of peace while running in Astoria Park, taking a
stroll on the Highline, or sitting on the benches at the Brooklyn Promenade at
dusk.
Those
moments are very far and few between – evanescent and too pathetic to
constitute for a quality of life argument.
There
are places in this world where the streets are quiet, almost eerily desolate,
and peaceful.
Where
children still play outside and neighborhoods throw block parties.
Places
where the water gently crashes into the surf creating white sand and a serene
backdrop for a beach house.
Where
our backyards are not views into another complex, but are grassy acres of land
filled with swimming pools and fireflies instead of a rat’s arresting eyes.
Places
where men regard a woman as a treasured gem – where chivalry and traditional
morals reign.
Where
women are not afraid to admit that they want love and a settled life in their
twenties - instead of chasing an unfulfilling career that will not cradle you
and comfort you when you are at your worst.
Places
where one can truly experience a Buddhist nirvana – that salient moment of
enlightenment and wonder where peace can be attained.
This
city boasts to offer so much – career advancement, networking, the best public
transportation, and the bright alluring lights.
All
of which are an illusion created to distract and deter one from the true meaning
of this fleeting life.
A
life of peace, of happiness, and full of love.
Love
being the unparalleled superlative of them all – the collage of relationships
that brings value and meaning to the beginning, the middle, and the end of our
lives.
New
York City, it’s been real.
I
am ready for a deeper life constructed of breathing in the sweet aroma of fresh
air seasoned with an ocean saltiness.
Florida
calls to my soul.
"I’m
coming", I whisper back.
"Ya
vengo."
Well...this says it all doesn't it? You are not alone in your distaste for the City of Void. Many poets (a few Latin American poets I read in College) shared this same distain. It's good to see that you've realized what's truy important in life at such a young age! Florida sunshine and warm waters await you....pack your bathing suit! I ADORE YOU! <3
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